Confused..

I really wanted to put this in words but I dont know how. This is weird and I know it is very unethical but somehow it has been a while since back then. It is getting more ambiguous now as the days passing by.

I don't know how long it will last because the change is coming soon. I seriously hope this will stay a little longer but deep inside of me I know it will soon be gone. It has started to turn sour now and I think it is better to leave earlier rather than later. After all sweet is still more favourable than bitter.

Perhaps someday it may happen. I am waiting but I aint no sure how long I need to wait. You must have think I am talking craps and yes I am cause like I put it upfront, I don't know how to put this and it is confusing...