Apparently..

It seems decades since I have put down a few words here. I literally have forgotten the feeling of blog writing. In fact it is not so long but the job i am working at makes me feel aging fast. This job is not only killing me from the inside but also distant me from my life as a friend, family, or human.

I basically dont see the path if i continue the role. The thought of give up basically surfacing every morning noon evening and night. This is not ranting but as reminded by cp i feel like one of the tragic encounter in hp where the employee expressed her stress and eventually passed out few days later with her company laptop on.

I am afraid and avoiding but unfortunately cant stop thinking that I will follow her footstep one day as days gone by. Hw pls save me...

Dental Claim

I wouldnt say the company i working with provide a platinum class of medical coverage but at least, i am quite certain it has gold level. Don't get me wrong, if you follow my post i am sure you know exactly what happened to my ankle and the claims i have submitted - last year. To recap, yes i've been to the specialist for x-ray, scans and physiology that cost more than my monthly salary. Well it's necessary but not worth because i can still feel the pain after all those procedures.

Ok that was last year, back to current. Thank to the recent organization restructure, I am now orphan without a location manager. Meanings to say, I dont know where should my claims submitted to. This is serious, what's the point of staying in this company if my dental fees still pending and i am not entitle to it? I've been reading something about medicare fraud lawyer that helped the company to take actions to the white collar, i wonder if i can hire one to address otherwise!

训

Yeah finally company is sending me to the training - ITIL practitioner. I have sat for the foundation and now this is more of an intermediate level which is way more difficult, at least, i need to really understand the course material and unlike the foundation just follow the answer given in the mock questions and score 95%.

For those of you who dont know ITIL, it is basically a framework where most service company is adopting and practicing. It is indeed very popular and so call proven to sustain the business (well quite true or otherwise all the companies i worked with had already bankrupt or I kena phase out).

So back to the topic, it is difficult, people actually did fail the exam and paying 800 to resit the paper. Damn it is horrifying when it comes to monies.. i think i better start reading now..

假

It can be holiday, it can be fake. What if we relate these two together? It is equivalent to fake holiday, aka MC, in which i often using it after i picked up this role. Most of them were genuine, but part of it of course is not quite true. Simple, cause i think i had enough of work and needed some rest, or better still some other job that can give me a reason not to take fake holiday.

Last week i just had a 4 days consecutive off days including my AL and holidays we have in boleh land. Somehow it is not enough, i was so tempted to take MC on Friday but knowing i will be away for training for one full week, it is better i go back to office and fake it.

Suddenly thought of the happy time in japan again. Damn i guess its time to plan another trip back there...

SMT Stencil

i-devices is no creation nor invention, they are product enhancement or revolution from the existing idea to something more advance and powerful. The idea has been living for long but jobs turn it into something applicable to our era, hence it is useful, and breed like nobody business.

Speaking of technology enhancement, it is imperative i mention SMT Stencils. SMT Stencil is a technology leading manufacture, committed to delivering the highest quality laser stencils in the industry. How do you think the i-products can get smaller, glossier, shinier, or prettier each year? Without the help of the finest quality lase stencils or related technology, we are no way near to today's stage. As i mentioned, the last generation were focus on the invention, our generation is to enhance the product and make it more reliable and useful to the population.

What's next? You tell me.

戏

Wedding is just like a show, repeating all the steps where other married couple had performed. If you dont follow the same and you will consider minority and end up left out from the society or being topic that discussed by those hack during dinners.

Somehow, either you do it or not, i believe the result is still the same. My beloved brother just finished his grand wedding. No special surprises but i am happy that he finally tide the knot and enter another phase of life. Afterall this is life, you just have to follow what ever people tell you to do or otherwise, you are abnormal.

Well anyhow, the wedding is over, everyone in the dinner was happy and we are exhausted from day 1 of the preparation, mentally. Now my only wish to him is to stay happy, healthy, wealthy, ever after with many kids and grand kids.

吵

Wanted to use the 烦 as subject to these few occasions but somehow decided to change it given that the root cause (and result) is still due to 吵.

Well it's not one incident but several that accumulated this log. Human are not naturally born happy, optimistic, positive and harmony. Each and every one of us is trying to self-destruct or destroy other so one can hurt deep including self. I do understand that feeling as I am one of the unfortunate one that trapped in this form but somehow, I dont know why i always ended up in the role that accelerate the two extreme party trying to accommodate and eventually made myself exhausted and hateful.

despite the fact i know it is impossible but i am still hoping this stupidity can stop earlier than i estimated. meanwhile, another few incidents still pending i to solve. when can i stop doing that?